2nd time.

I was really upset yesterday. so much for my new year resolution. >< so upset that i cant really remember what i did. hadnt been like that for awhile. but forget it.because i know when i did the wrong things, i was forgiven too. and i believe everyone should have 3 chances to grow up and learn.last chance. i must grow up too. (: today was a busy day. but im quite glad with all the improvements im making recently. (: with hard work comes reward! top eight for jumps and i'll be contented. top three can wait alitte longer >< i should be sleeping by now. but dont feel like yet. tommorow is going to be a long day. i know i should be cherishing time with my sister, but i cant help dreading it ): sorry. i really feel like an outcast in this family now. i remember crying and telling you that you're going to forget me and come back with an american accent just before you left for boston. you reassured me and say you wont be different. but.. guess i already knew this would happen. kinda miss the times when we stayed up late and talk about our feelings and problems,making honey chicken in the middle of the night,baking all sorts of different things together. oh well. cant wait for holidays!!