reality.

I suddenly have the urge to blog. so many things i wanna whine about. but nobody to hear them. i'd find myself irritating if i continue whining to people as well.

Friends. how many of them stays throughout your life? none i presume. I watch my parents, and other adults. they dont have friends whom they tell their problems to.
As we grow up, we slowly keep to ourselves more. because we get busy, and cant care so much about people's life. we're humans, Our lives and our own problems are always more important than anyone else, because humans are selfish.


I wish i will never age. Or maybe die around 60 before all the illnesses come. so terrible ): but yea. i know. its part and parcel of life and all that.


i feel that i cant communicate with people anymore ): its like year 1 in poly again. feeling all those "No one understands" "No one is there for me" all those bullshit. its not like i can control any of it. ): and i thought talking to people will make things better. but no. it made it worst. and i wished i didnt whine to my friends today. i feel so pathetic.



im so damn tired with life. working. money. i just wanted a day of fun for myself. but i guess im just not fated to play. went one big round and i still have to work on saturdays. do what? wash plates. yea. on SATURDAY MORNINGS. i swear i've never work so hard in my entire life. never taken up so many different kind of jobs in such a short period of time. haha. desperate needs brings desperate measures. (:


life is short. cherish what we have.

day 24

slacking at the hotel alone today! everyone went silk market again. im not emo-ing okay. just really tired, and dont really like silk market. hahahha. i didnt gym for one week already! going down today. =x hahahaha. finally some peace, because normally alot of people one!

sorry to those who emailed me and didnt recieve replies! the connection here is damn slow! i cant send out my mail D: sorry!! but im fine so dont worry! just rather home sick! :s cant wait to get back! wish everthing will still be the same!

anyway, have been iceskating alot lately! because its cheapp! hahaha. went twice already. going again tommorow. stacey is a skater, as in the roller blade kind. so shes gets really high when we go iceskating because its quite similar.

class is still as boring. but manage to stay awake today :D everybody like playing games during class only. the guys spam dota. then some of us play crazy taxi and super meat boy. hahahha.

oh i watched finish vampire diaries already! :D :D :D its super nice! cant wait for the next few episodes to come out.

ok i know my post like so messy. alittle here and there. too lazy to think! falling asleep already because the room is so dark. ok some pictures!


saw this really funny sign by the road. look at the grass behind the sign.. HAHAHA.



the lollipop hannah gave me before i left for beijing :D cute rite! ate it at great wall of china.


shoes i've bought so far. =x i know i have to stop, or else i really wont have enought luggage space.


okie rest awhile then going down for gym already! byebye!

day 21

havent been updating! :X the internet is irritating. and i always have to wait for my turn because only one person can use per time.


nothing much happened this week. didnt go out during weekdays because we were too tired after class. also because we overspent, so need to save more money. haha. went iceskating yesterday though. its much cheaper here! 50 yuan for 1.5 hours on weekends, and 10 yuan every hour after that. rental included. so we paid S$12 for 2.5 hours (:

going to silk road today. another cheap cheap shopping street. but dont think i'll wanna buy anything unnecessary. spent alot already=. yesterday was my turn to pay for groceries and that took 140 yuan. sigh. but need to get the RC plane for my final year project from silk road though.



i miss home so much! wish i can go back now! ): 6 weeks is too long!

wonder how things will be like after 6 weeks. dreading the outcome of this OITP. ): its like i can already feel the change taking place. drifting away from everyone in singapore,not being able to be there for those who need me ): what kind of a friend,girlfriend,daughter am i. really wish i could be there, you know?
im in a bad mood today! couldnt sleep last night. cried alot. D: i slept at 2am and woke at 6am, lie on the bed till now! >< going to bathe soon!

i dont have any pictures to upload because i dont have a camera. -/ so too bad! bye people!