feeling left out.

Everyone is so busy with their lives ): one of those times that i feel like i dont have anyone to talk to. I wished that i was one of those that got alot of shifts from abercrombie. i wished i was part of that group. because they look like their having so much fun. ): it makes me feel like im not part of it. and makes me dread working there now. neither do i enjoy working at muffinry. ): unless when i have the same shift as JLL. but thats like. once in dunno how long kind. i just wished i have close colleagues ): i dunno why im feeling this way. i dunno why i wished i was part of that group. even though i know i wouldnt like it. because abercrombie people outings are always clubbing. why am i so weird? i think one day when i read this post again i'll feel retarded. feeling upset over something so insignificant. haha. must be my period messing with my brains. nights!

worries.

hello! Havent been blogging for another half a year. but nothing much have changed since my last post. My life seems so perfect. so happy. I've got great friends,great family no matter how naggy they are, and a great boyfriend. Went on the most awesome trip ever to tioman just last week. Its a trip that i will never forget. i love travelling to such places, where there isnt a city, no internet, no communication with the world, because its super relaxing. its like i dont have to worry about anything else. and just have as much fun as i want. :D life's great. graduated from 3 years of Singapore Poly. starting university in about 3 months time. friends are going into army soon. everyone is moving on with their lives. i only have one small problem. which is still the same since my last post. every single time i get to make a wish, be it a birthday, or in front of a wishing fountain, i'll always wish that this problem will slowly get better. i'm gonna work really hard, and gonna keep on wishing on every birthday till the problem is solved. I will make sure this problem doesnt haunt me for the rest of my life. (: things will be fine. it will be.

reality.

I suddenly have the urge to blog. so many things i wanna whine about. but nobody to hear them. i'd find myself irritating if i continue whining to people as well.

Friends. how many of them stays throughout your life? none i presume. I watch my parents, and other adults. they dont have friends whom they tell their problems to.
As we grow up, we slowly keep to ourselves more. because we get busy, and cant care so much about people's life. we're humans, Our lives and our own problems are always more important than anyone else, because humans are selfish.


I wish i will never age. Or maybe die around 60 before all the illnesses come. so terrible ): but yea. i know. its part and parcel of life and all that.


i feel that i cant communicate with people anymore ): its like year 1 in poly again. feeling all those "No one understands" "No one is there for me" all those bullshit. its not like i can control any of it. ): and i thought talking to people will make things better. but no. it made it worst. and i wished i didnt whine to my friends today. i feel so pathetic.



im so damn tired with life. working. money. i just wanted a day of fun for myself. but i guess im just not fated to play. went one big round and i still have to work on saturdays. do what? wash plates. yea. on SATURDAY MORNINGS. i swear i've never work so hard in my entire life. never taken up so many different kind of jobs in such a short period of time. haha. desperate needs brings desperate measures. (:


life is short. cherish what we have.